The other night when we were in bed, I told D that I miss wedding planning, he called me silly and turned over. I'm not going to lie but I cried, he started to talk to me and when I wouldn't answer, he realised.
Not many people talk about how you feel once all the planning, running around, reading blogs and magazines and the big day and the honeymoon, is over.
Some people just aren't planners, not me.
I'm sorry but my blog isn't always all fluffy and nice, sometimes I like to talk about what is bothering me in life. If you don't like, please click away, now.
I think I got a rush out of the planning, I enjoyed being creative, I enjoyed catching up on all the wedding blogs, I enjoyed going to expos, I enjoyed helping with my best friends wedding plans, I enjoyed planning our engagement party, my Kitchen tea, I enjoyed waiting on the daily emails from my wedding planner - seeing what she's come up with - saying yes to this and no to that, ticking off that checklist, looking at different types of flowers, different shades of purple, different styles of fonts, going through the budget. It was everything that I lived and breathed for the last 18 months (my good friends that are reading this would be nodding their heads right about now) and on the big day I was like FUCK YES - major accomplishment and it felt goooooood!
Besides the Thank you cards and photos (we got our photos 3 days later and the best ones in albums) it all ended, no more emails, no more rushing around, I felt like the umbilical had been cut between myself and the wedding world.
I got the sweetest email from my planner tonight and it brought me to tears, I feel like I've lost a pen friend, she did say to call when we're in Bali next for drinks. I plan to do that! ;P
I just love to organise, I have boxes, containers and baskets for everything in our home, when I go on holidays, I research for months, I make myself an itinerary with a folder with all my paperwork in date order, eh hem.. ocd much? hehehe Planning was funnnnnnnn! I loved every minute of it. I'm a planner.
D spoke truthfully, said that I miss planning (which I already knew right) he said that it sounds like I miss being excited about something, I miss having a goal and dedicating all my time and effort into something. He said I should be a wedding planner! I laughed in his face.. Fo realz? I don't think I would be patient enough to deal with brides, then we decided that maybe I could throw a yearly kick ass party with our bestest friends - sounds like a plan to me, once we get a house but yes, I like the sound of this! and I'm also going to start on our October holiday for 2012, we're going to the USA and in 2013, God willing, we'll try for a baby!
D and I are super happily married, we are loving it and very much looking forward to our future together.
My plan now is to keep busy busy busy, I bought my 2012 diary in September *blush* talk about being a planer!! My brain will be at ease once I start back at work next week, after 6 weeks off, I'm actually excited about getting on to my work emails! Sad but oh. so. true.